Two years ago today you closed your beautiful eyes. No more seizures, no more scars, no more of my baby’s beautiful cries. I remember you would be lying down in bed suddenly you had tears running down your face. I would say, “Are the little angels scolding you and they left without a trace.” I would say not to worry my baby boy in my eyes you do no wrong, you are my son. I know you play with Grandpa, Daddy and G.G. and do everything I wanted to do with you, even run. I close my eyes and I see you smile and still it hurts me. But that’s what I wanted you to do, be a boy, run, play, jump and I’d sit back and see. I only see it in my mind now, imagine it and keep it in my memory and in my heart. As long as I close my eyes and you’re there we are never far apart. I know you watch Faith and Melissa at Kid Skills helping other babies like you. I know you watch Dr. Monica from Family Practice do all she can do. You watch all the crew at Raymondville Pharmacy get all the meds out on time. I know you watch your Nana Alice up from above. She showed you warmth and lots of love. You will always watch over them and I will be forever grateful and they will always be in my prayers and on my mind.

You will always be edged in my memory and in my heart. I wanted you to always walk with me so we will not be far apart. I sometimes try to see you growing older and all but I know if I go too far I may cross the line and fall. Your Daddy watches you and Grandpa and G.G. spoil you and I know you are fine. But no matter what you’re my son, my baby boy, always just mine.

The baby boy who in his four years taught me many lessons especially that there’s more time than life. I was your mommy, I was a determined woman and also a wife. Now I am stronger, harder and not afraid of anything life throws my way.

I love you always and forever Popo, your death taught me to do things now, to do them today. Because sometimes waiting ‘til later may be too late. I learned only God knows how long we will be here, He knows our fate. Your sisters say it’s funny how life happens all the way around. Two years ago we got lost and our stability will never be found. They say they will grow up never watching you grow old and watch you play. I tell them close your eyes, he is next to you holding your hand and is with you in everyway. They remember you and how happy you always were in spite of it all. In your memory they promise to be strong and accomplish everything they want and never fall. I tell them if they do fall it’s ok baby girls because you have four special angels in heaven watching you. They will guide you through life that’s what they will do. To everyone out there you were just another boy who died. But to me your death was the day that never ended my silent cry....

Love,

Mommy, your sisters - Alexis and Krystal

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